About Kinde Nebeker
My Wilderness Rites of Passage Story
My story is the story of millions of other human beings—perhaps you recognize it? And yet it is also unique:
Nearly a decade ago, in my early 40’s, I began to feel rumblings of discontent. Archetypally, my life began to dismember itself as I struggled to find my way through increasingly strong and bewildering inner stirrings. I left a marriage to a man I dearly loved and plunged into a several years of darkness, withdrawing in many ways from the world to explore my inner landscape and find out who the hell I really was and why I was here.
My First Vision Fast
In the summer of 2007, I did a vision fast as part of my Ecopsychology degree. In a safe and sacred community of nine students and two guides, my schoolmates and I did a 9-day ‘wilderness rites of passage’, centered around a 3-day solo fast in a beautiful red rock canyon in southeastern Utah.
It was a time out of time. Over the three days that I spent in my chosen site behind a giant sandstone boulder on the west side slope of the canyon, so much happened. And so little!! I laid inert on the ground, too tired to move. I climbed up to the base of redrock splitter cracks and watched a thunderstorm pass from the safety of a rock overhang. I stood draped only in a blue saraong and declared my own power. I made small cowpie fires when the temperatures suddenly dropped. I smeared markings in charchol on my body at the chakra points and sat in the sun on a giant flat rock and communed with psychadelic-colored lizards. I sat up in a circle of rocks and waited for the moon to rise in the east . . . and eventually, the sun.
Upon returning from our ordeal, (so ecstatic to see each other and take that first glorious sip of miso soup!) our group shared mythical stories of our time out on the land. The guides held us strongly and lovingly, mirroring back to us the profound lessons we had been given. The depth and meaning of that first vision fast is with me still, and continues to work its wonder in my psyche.
The Power of Wilderness Rites of Passage
Since that time, I have felt a stronger and stronger calling in me to bring nature-based rites of passage work into the mainstream. The power of this ancient form of knowing one’s self and one’s place in the world remains mysterious, beyond my rational mind’s understanding. And each time I fast or guide others, the transformation I experience or witness in others is profound beyond anything I experience within modern culture. I am called to be a mentor and guide for others who seek deep and authentic connection to themselves, to Life, to others, and to this world.
I believe re-awakening to ourselves as an inseparable part of the mysterious spirit of the natural world is the source of living sustainably, of creating the new culture. It is the calling we must heed to evolve into our potential as humans. When we each truly awaken IN OUR BODIES, SOULS AND SPIRITS to this knowing, all our choices, our creativity, how we design our world, will flow naturally.
Do you feel the Impulse?
If you feel a yearning in yourself to become more deeply connected, I can be a co-creator with you of the change we wish to see in the world—which begins with a real and lasting change in our selves.
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I am by profession a designer, having worked in graphic design for over 30 years. In 2008 I completed a Master’s degree in Transpersonal Psychology with a concentration in Ecopsychology. It was in this program at Naropa University that I first learned about and experienced wilderness rites of passage. I was instantly moved by its simplicity and power and grew to hear that this form of deep ceremony was calling for me to do its work in the modern world. I recognized the path of my life as leading me to become a Wilderness Rites of Passage guide.
As a designer, I have mastered a keen sense of right relationship— what ‘feels right’ between objects in space; their balance, proportion, position and size relationships. I am a communicator, and create the right relationship of image, word, color, symbol and abstract form to make meaning for others, both on a conscious and unconscious level. I integrate the logic of function with the creativity of visual interest. I care equally about what ‘works’ and what is beautiful.
In my new work as a guide and ecopsychologist, I am concerned with the right relationship of the human to the place we call home, planet earth. Like many others, I have felt in myself and see in others the great disconnection that has occurred between the soul of humans and the soul of the earth as we have become more and more technologically advanced. I am moved to action by the scope of ecological deterioration now occurring to the earth’s biosystems because of our actions.
I have sought the deepest source cause of why we have wrought such blind imbalance — a cultural forgetting of our sacred relationship to Mother Earth — and now turn my efforts toward doing all I can to bring back this ancient and innately human awareness we all still hold in our bodies and souls.
Other stuff about me
I grew up in Salt Lake City, Utah in the 60’s. I was a classical pianist and artist as a kid and spent a great deal of time outside, climbing trees and making spaces amongst rocks and bushes. I’m the oldest of five siblings. I lived in San Francisco and Berkeley from 1986 to 1992. I have owned a design business since 1990. I am a rock climber and yoga practitioner and world traveler.I have taught design at the University level, been involved in many community organizations, and done public art projects. I have a great partner who is a loving support and amazing listener. I am thrilled at all I’ve been able to learn and do and see so far in my life, and am on the edge of my seat to see what is coming next!!
For a short bio and resume, click here.